Woman was made from the rib of man,
She was not created from his head to top him,
Nor from his feet to be stepped upon,
She was made from his side to be close to him,
From beneath his arm to be protected by him,
Near his heart to be loved by him.
Juz a lil’ something to share wif u guys.. 
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-aYu-
Betrayal comes in many forms,
But relies on underlying intimacy
To insure a lethal wound.
It is an emotional ambush,
Carefully designed,
Flawlessly executed,
Producing an evil sound
In the orchestra of life.
Then, filled with doubt,
And tangents notwithstanding,
I struggle with myself.
Am I flawed?
Do I lack the proper trust?
Am I paranoid and suspicious?
Perhaps it is me.
The Betrayer
Will wrap themselves in a coat of righteousness,
Impervious to honest eyes
That are searching for a soul.
Instead…
They will describe their soul for you,
And demand that you will see
The spiritual mirage.
And so I am stranded
In the valley of disregard.
Alone.
And I am left to decide,
Who brought me to this barren wasteland.
Why does conscience desert me,
And tell me that I am wrong,
When evil lies before me and not within?
And then I know…
That betrayal is not a lonely thing,
It has an evil twin.
Betrayal is a conspiracy,
With those who would wield the saber.
Darkened assignations,
Construed in private
By blighted souls.
And so we arrive at a point in our lives
When I know that I’ve been betrayed.
I hear hushed conversations from afar;
Justifications and rationalizations
From those who have sprung the trap.
Perhaps I am wrong,
And this is all some tragic mistake,
But I reside in the valley of disregard,
And I feel the stones as I am tied to the stake.
- Betrayal, by Frank P Whyte
(the full poem is here: http://www.authorsden.com/categories/poetry_top.asp?catid=33&id=100328)
Some people don’t always cherish trust the way that they should. Because it is often given freely at first it is also easily taken for granted. The sad reality is that once trust has been damaged, it can’t simply go back to the way it once was..
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-aYu-
They say the sun is bright
I see the cloudy sky
They say the flowers are blooming
I see the stinging bees
They say the sea breeze is cooling
I see the murderous curling waves
They say they’re settling down
I see myself just sitting down.
..wishing much happiness to "They" & "I"..
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*pls be informed that the owner of this blog needs a getaway-retreat-therapy-rehab(??)-vacation thingy…preferably out of the land called Malaysia 
ASAP!! ..and anyone who is interested to accompany her is much welcomed! 
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-aYu-
if u see me falling down, catch me..
if u see me running away, stop me..
if u see me wondering around, guide me..
and if u see me crying, lend me your shoulder..
but if u’re here just to watch me break, then Go..
leave me here between these 4 walls..
they’ll be my supporters, or they might fall before me..
and i shall break Alone..
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-aYu-
when everyone’s having their own plans..
i feel alone and suffocated..
lost with misleading guidance..
i’m burnt by the scorching heat of the sun..
praying to find the way out before dusk..
will i be rescued before midnite?
or never to be found..
is it me, or is it them..
i wonder the cause of this misery..
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-aYu-
"Sometimes we put too much passion on the biggest dreams & priorities in life that we fail to love the smallest pleasures from simple things..
We search so much for the right choices, for the right paths to walk through, for the right time & for the right reasons..
But life isn’t always about searching for the things that can be found.. It is about letting the unexpected happen & finding things you never searched for.."
- those were Great words from a Great fren of mine.. it was her new year’s message to me… Joe bebeh, luv ya darl~ i juz have to share it wif others.. it’s deep. really.
haaahh.. this is my 1st blog post for this year! *gosh it’s already 2008!! i wonder wat’s in store for me… how’s ur new year so far??.. great? not so great?.. well, still a long journey to go..
and oh yeah..about the title of my blog for today… nothing to do wif wat i posted above, ..i’m juz wondering, ppl say old habits die hard… is it true??…hmmm…
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-aYu-
Halo all…
How’s everyone doink? hopefully doing great i guess most of u are enjoying ur year-end hols…unlike me, sangaping in the office huhu… takde keje sgt since everyone else are on leave… oh well… nasib badan laa terpaksa "vacationing" in the office.. takde keje, but kena pretend to do something and mengadap notebook ni for hours! huhuh.. luckilyy frenster boleh access! surprisingly! i guess org network excited sgt nak cuti2 sampai ter"unblock" the access to frenster?? hahaha…
anyways, nothing much that i wanna say… since the big 2008 is juz around the corner, i guess this is supposed to be my year-end-speech blog where i’m supposed to babble bout my life in 2007, the good & bad experiences, lessons learned, yada yada… Well2…kalo nak diikutkan mmg banyaakk la sgt nak di spill out… but i guess biarlah.. biarlah rahsia huhuh… lgpun nothing phenomenal happened pun.. ada sket2 jer mende "happening" yg berlaku.. which my close frens dah tau, so no need to disclose here
wat i can say is that 2007 has taught me bout a lot of things..about life.. about creatures called homo sapiens huhu.. and to be wiser, stronger.. to be more patient.. and appreciate everyone & everything around me… i’ve learnt that everything happens for a reason, seriously. and sh*T happens, but sooner or later, hikmah disebaliknya will be revealed to us…
i’m thankful for everything that happened, both good & bad… i guess God has his plans, and sometimes life can be quite twisted in a way that we might not be able to accept it in the beginning.. but now i guess i can kinda see the light at the end of the tunnel though it’s still pretty much foggy.. i believe in fate.. takdir.. Watever happens, it’s for the better insyaAllah
am looking forward to a brand-new year… new start. Wishing & hoping for better things to come along my way… and i wish the same for each and every one of u
okaylaa..sbg penutupan huhu…would like to share a song, yesterday my cuzzin syida asked me to listen to this song.. to the lyrics… aahh..somehow agak sesuaii.. especially the vid.. in the vid ada a gal in a glass tank.. i guess i’m like her.. hmmm watch the vid, and amati liriknya…then u might understand Cinta dalam hati by Ungu -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9w3SSIMIPBg
Happy Holidays, Happy New Year, and have a great & wonderful year ahead!!
Cheers~
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-aYu-
I’ve been watching your world from afar
I’ve been trying to be where you are
And I’ve been secretly falling apart
To me, you’re strange and you’re beautiful
You’d be so perfect with me but you just can’t see
You turn every head but you don’t see me
Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes
And I know, the waiting is all you can do..
*bits & pieces taken from Strange and Beautiful by Aqualung
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-aYu-
Malam ini ku sendiri
tak ada yang menemani
seperti malam malam
yang sudah sudah
Hati ini selalu sepi
tak ada yang menghiasi
seperti cinta ini
yang slalu pupus
Tuhan kirimkanlah aku
kekasih yang baik hati
yang mencintai aku
apa adanya
Mawar ini semakin layu
tak ada yang memiliki
seperti aku ini
semakin pupus
Tuhan kirimkanlah aku
kekasih yang baik hati
yang mencintai aku
apa adanya…
- Munajat Cinta by The Rock feat. Ahmad Dhani
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-aYu-
Holaaa~
Hope everyone’s doing fine.. at this very moment i’m here at home enjoying my last day of long leave huhu… dah 1 week ++ tak keje, and tmrw back to work! aarghkkk…
Anyways, if u’ve seen my uploaded pics, sure dah tau that i went for hols to indon haritu.. best sgtt!! shopping gile tak hingat huhu.. went to jakarta -> puncak -> bandung -> and back to jakarta… we were there for 6 days..rasa cam x ckup jer..needed more time for shopping haha.. but i guess more days there == more $$$ spent! uhhhh… ;\ so kira nasib baik gak la tak lama sgt kat situ hihih..
During my hols in indon..sempat la tgk a few of dorang punye sinetron on tv.. best gak lah.. so ada satu ni title dia Cinta Bunga.. and the theme song is a song by Gigi entitled 11 Januari.. do listen to this song! suke sgt!
Then, balik dr indon, relax for 1 day jer, then gi cherating plak wif my colleagues.. we had our annual treasure hunt, and this yr the route was from cyber -> cherating.. ni 2nd time my baby @ my car join treasure hunt hihi.. at first i was supposed to be the driver (again).. but luckily shah sanggup jadi pak supir ktorang.. so i became the navigator.. my team; sue, siti, shah & myself @ Happy Hunters, won 9th place out of 58 teams.. not bad huh!! hehehe.. best best!.. kalo ada lg treasure hunt next yr nak join lagi! 
Ermmm.. okayla takde apape nak citer sgt…quite bored..dok umah jer… haa ni nak share a quote from the movie The Holiday.. main casts dia - Cameron Diaz, Kate Winslet, Jude Law & Jack Black.. i watched it yesterday on telly.. ada lah satu quote ni i suka..by the character Iris played by Kate Winslet.. so here it is
"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you.
And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of Chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends.. you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy.
And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again.
And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.."
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-aYu-
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