aYu’s Babbling..

some people say, the light means Hope,
but people also say, if u see “the light” it means it’s time for u to say “Adios”..

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-aYu-

Alooloo…dah lama tak membabblekan diri kat sini kan! sunyiii jer dahh blog nii huhuhu…
hhmmm..wat shall i write in here today ekk….

yeah…i was thinking, i can write crappy nonsense poems in english.. but i juz dont have the talent and ability to write puisi2 dgn bahasa puitis dlm bahasa melayu.. goshh.. maybe kosa kata tak ckup hebat kott heheh.. still ingat lagi masa nak SPM dlu.. uuuhh kene byk2 blaja perkataan canggih mcm dasawarsa la, anjakan paradigma la, nak skor esei BM punya psal la hehe.. and maybe sbb dah biasa merapu in english kot sbb tu tak tau nak merapu dlm BM haahhahaa (geli eden..) ..bak kata sharifah amani, “i sound like stupid if i speak malay”? ahahah LOL..ok i’m not like that ok.. saya bole ckp melayu, cuma kalo nak tulis puisi2 ni tak reti…tp kalo nak reka pantun dua kerat yg merepek bole lagi kot hehe..

so, utk menunjukkan betapa bosannya saya pada harini, saya akan cuba menghasilkan satu puisi dlm BM..hihih… gonna take a few minutes for me to susun2 ayat sket heheh.. and if it really does sounds stupid, ignore jee..takyah baca.. ni kan blog saya, suka hati la saya nak tulis apa kat sini hihi

here it goes..

sekiranya mata ini boleh berkata-kata
mungkin bisa kau lihat sinar yg terpancar mengungkap seribu rahsia

sekiranya suaraku boleh menyampaikan pesan
mungkin bisa kau dengar maksud yg tersirat

sekiranya bisa ku keluarkan hati ini
mungkin bisa kau baca hasrat yg terpendam

tapi mata ini sudah terlalu lama memandang
mulut ini masih tidak mampu bersuara lantang
dan hati ini masa lagi menyimpan sejuta rasa

hanya waktu dan Dia bisa menentukan kesudahannya..

haaa..amaciamm…haahhaha… ishkk..gile mcm karat tak ingat jerr.. my brain tak bole nak menghasilkan ayat2 canggih laa.. so tu jer yg termampu

adduhhh…i’m sooo friggin bored dah tatau nak tulis apa daah…dah duduk kat my place since morning.. lunch time pun tak kuar sbb mkn bun jer kat my cubicle ni.. yer laa konon2nye nak jimat cermat laa sbb bulan ni mmg pokai.. so harini bwk bekal huhuh.. skang dah mati kutu nak surf apa.. dah frenster2 dah..takde apa yg menarik pun huhu.. facebook plak mmg tak bleh bukak kat ofis.. dah surf2 gamba cuppies dah…hari2 tgk gamba cuppies hehe..gile mengidamm.. takper, mlm ni insyaAllah sure dpt kalo jd gi the curve..yipppee!! cupcake chic here i come! :P~~ google woogle pun dah sudah.. i tell uu google can really give u A LOT of info on the net (if u know the magic keyword to search laa hihih).. ada jumpa satu site ni.. haritu dah jumpa satu site lain… dia kan..ishk3..malas je nak ckp..takperlaa.. i bole ampunkan lagi sbb org tuuu…toot toot tooot…huhuhu..

okaylaaa….sampai sini saje wat masa ini, saye merepek di sini yerr.. tata titi tutuuu…

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-aYu-

everything happens for a reason, they say..
so here i am, waiting for the reason..

time heals all wounds, they say..
so here i am, supposedly healing..

patience is a virtue, they say..
so here i am, being patient..

but i’m lost in a place where everything seems so surreal..
trapped between dreams & reality..

hanging on for years..
wondering how much longer can i endure this..

will i survive?
or will i perish with dignity..

time will tell, they say..
so here i am…

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-aYu-

Holaaa… long timee me no write in here eyh.. hehehe..

me very the lazy lately..well bukan la lazy sgt.. been very bz wif work and other stuffs.. hence, i don’t have the time to spend to sit down and think of something "creative".. or at least something readable for my fellow audiences in here.. haha.. ok pls ignore my membebeling dah mlm2 nii…

i was going through some files i have in my humble acquaintance @ my beloved notebook… bumped into a .txt file… it contains something which i guess i’ve typed aagesss ago while some ideas came gushing out of this tiny puny lil "creative" brain of mine.. i must have saved it and never had the time to publish it… or perhaps i didn’t feel like publishing it at that time…

so here it goes…something for u to read and ponder, if u don’t have anything else to ponder upon ;P

have u ever been in a situation,
where u’ve given your all
put aside other people’s thoughts and opinions
when you just followed your heart & your instincts
in hope to get something in return… something, at least..

but then again when you’re just hoping too much.. (perhaps dreaming too much..)
and u don’t get anything… except for frustration
u start to question.. (lotsa questions..) about everything..
and u start regreting
reminiscing the past..
hating the present..
wondering bout the future..

what would u do if u’re in a situation,
where everything seems to be so messed up..
and when you’re just plain tired…

p.s.. watever i wrote above was wat i felt at that particular moment in time. not applicable now (i feel pretty sane and stable, at least for these few minutes while i’m writing this blog.. haha).. juz felt like posting it.. coz i think it’s good ahakss.. heyy why waste something as good+crappy as this utk sendiri baca jer kan?? (puji hasil writing sendiri :P)

saje jer nak menyinggah kat sini.. rindu plak kat my blog!
me ngantoks.. nite2!!

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-aYu-

lately people has been throwing & shoving their tantrums at me

everywhere, anywhere

must i always be the punching bag?
am i such an easy target?

pms, stress, pressure, watever u call it..
i have mood swings too.
i have lotsa work too.
my life isn’t that great as well.

sarcasm sure isn’t helping.

i feel sick. my head is spinning.
my back..goshh u don’t know how it feels, the pain is killing me.
everything is jumbled-up inside my body.

a short-term solution for this, might be comfort food, self-pampering or retail therapy session?

maybe a carton of ciggy might help?? (it seems to help a lot of people? really?)

or i’ll juz need to runaway somewhere..
to a place where people aren’t always pissed-off at something or someone.
where people aren’t selfish. is there such a place?

or i should sit in my lil corner and shut myself from these self-damaging "virus"? ..coz it seems to be spreading.

or maybe i need to start joining this bunch of throwing-tantrums-at-people people?

somebody help.. :}

*naper april takde public hol? rasa nak cutiii…

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-aYu-